right now i hate that you left me. i hate that we were decades apart in age. i hate that i have to go to another memorial service and hear how great you were. i hate that i have to wait another day to be with you again. i hate that i can never watch star wars again and not cry. i hate all those times i told you i had a headache. i hate that the tears won't stop. i hate how i collapse on the floor at night and can't get up. i hate that i have to go pick up your ashes soon. i hate that you died.